I have wanted to set-up this blog for a while. A blog written by a career newbie talking about the darker moments in our professional lives. The low moments when we feel there is no point in working hard. The low moment where you wondered "Am I ever going to get a job?". Well, it so happens that I am unemployed so I have found the time to write again!
This blog is meant to be confessional. I want the people that have had internal struggles about their careers to realize someone else feels the same way they feel. We all have had moments of depressing weakness. And it is about time we were honest about it!
Something that I have never understood about the business world is this shame about admitting you have weaknesses. Unfortunately, I subject myself to that shame all the time; I just feel such a strong pressure to be a know-it-all, strong, perfect, happy-happy! Which sucks for a person that strives to be authentic.
I am the Type A closet pessimist -- has a strong desire to be great but is always fearful that I will never be good enough. I constantly try to hide my worries and doubts behind this 'perfect' image of who I think I should be. Anyone heard of impostor syndrome? My favourite and most powerful TEDTalk by Lisa Cuddy talks about it during the second half of her video. Impostor syndrome is the feeling that no matter what you accomplish, you are still a loser and you do not deserve any of your success. It is a horribly mean way of treating yourself and I do not like it. Hopefully, I can learn to grow out of this.
By the way, I decided to blog instead of keep a journal because I no longer want to hide. I want to admit and accept that I will never be perfect. And just because I am not perfect, does not mean I am less worthy of happiness and success.
Thank you so much for reading this with me, it means a lot. Maybe you can share your moments of weakness with me too, would love to hear from you.
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